As I continued to move forward, I was engaged in one thing after the other, trying to protect the little "empire" that I had built over all those years and while one thing worked, two other things broke down. It sent my spiraling, emotionally, spiritually and financially, and I couldn't get a grip. I was use to "my stuff working" and moving forward and not being "fully in control" was never an option.
But then something beautiful begin to happen. Deep within me I started to VALUE me, LOVE me, and HONOR me. In doing so, I privately acknowledged and begin to value, love and honor the God that invested so much in me, and I started to move towards something beautiful. I confessed during this time that again, I need something else to happen. When your mind is full of ideas, or when you have accomplished more than you even remember or care to because it was never about the accomplishment but about seeing the actual results of what you did...you get numb, even crazy and if not careful depressed.
I share this because that something beautiful begin to take root deeply the last 5 years of my life. When you have to really recant some things, walk away from all things, and start fresh and then come to learn that what you came from you can't go back too..it is daunting. But I am always reminded about Abraham and for a long time God has been saying, "Lakita, get thee up from here (business, whatever) and go to a place that you don't know etc.
I encourage you to STOP today and look at your life as SOMETHING beautiful. Male or Female. Everybody has been through crap, and a lot of unmentionables, but there is a victory in the fact of acknowledging that God himself makes all things WELL. We are beautiful in His sight, but it is time for you to see that BEAUTY for yourself.
I pray that these words touch your core, as I am convinced that many have yet to experience the authentic love of SELF and love of GOD. I pray that you are reminded that SOMETHING Beautiful has ALREADY happened in you! Say it with me, I am #somethingBeautiful